It's really personal.......

I am really upset. Over the years, I have lost so many loved ones that it seems as though you are doing a sweep on my family. The biggest killer is cancer. Cancer took my father, my uncle, my aunt, my sister, and now my father in law is facing his own battle. Why?
These precious spirits all had a great role in life. So many of us depended on them for their words of encouragement, their love, and their presence. We need them to laugh with and share our ups and downs. We have planned a family trip to Barbados in the spring and now we just can’t go without him. We will need to be there for him - how awful will he feel (even though he may encourage us to go) that he is not able to join us? How awful will he feel if he realizes that we are not going - the thought of being the reason that we all decided not to go - can be quite depressing. Why would you want anyone to suffer through that?

I question you all the time, yet I pray to you because I believe that you can change things. I just need to hear from you. I just need to see a miracle - I know you can deliver - it's in the sky - the sun, moon, clouds, rain, air, trees, ocean and the wonderful creatures, the many countries and islands that you have created with different cultures. I could go on and on about your magnificent works. I relish in them and I give thanks for it all - yet I question you - why?

I really need to hear from you - please, dear God, show up!