Where are you? We need your attention......

Dear God,

What is going on? We are told to go to school to further our education. We set our goals to attain higher degrees in order to achieve financial success. Steven Kazmierczak decided not only to interrupt the path of others who had set their goals and was working towards achieving them; he decided to affect the families, friends, fellow classmates and all of us who follow the sad news. Valentines Day will never be the same for many of those who witnessed such hatred or for those who lost their loved ones on that day.

My question today God is where are you? I have always believed that you know all things, see all things and there is nothing that you cannot do - so what happened? How can I feel safe sending my girls off to college? How many lives will this effect in those who are now afraid of going to college? We are told to put our trust in you and I believe that those students just felt safe - after all you wouldn't allow anything so horrendous happen to them - not on Valentines Day!

With all respect, why do you allow these things to happen over and over again? What are we to learn from this? We know that we cannot take life for granted. We all know that tomorrow is not promised. We can go on and on with all of the givens........ However, I am so distracted by all this as I look to you for answers. I just want to hear from you. You know my thoughts and my intentions - please Dear God - we need your attention - it's just too crazy!

Can we just experience a day of peace and love?

Happy Valentines Day!

I know that this is the day that love is highlighted. Couples are planning to celebrate by exchanging gifts, going out to dinner, while proposals are ranked high on this day as well as marriages. It is all about sharing love with that special someone - and God knows there are so many others who do not have anyone to share.

Today Dear God, I pray that all the people who have a special someone to share their love will appreciate what they have in each other. I pray that those who do not have anyone special will find a way to cope with the emphasis that this day brings. How about bringing a dose of comfort and contentment to their lives? Let them know that they are special and loved by you the ultimate pure love. How about a special sign of love through the kindness of others? I know that you decide on how things will go - but I just needed to share this with you.

Innocent Lives at the hands of Ignorant People

My Dear God,

Yes, it's me as usual....... I can't help it - I need to let this out. A council meeting in Kirkwood, St. Louis where Charles
Thornton, a man who they said regularly disrupted meetings to air grievances and complain -- killed five people. His brother Gerald on Thursday said he "went to war tonight with the people that were of the government." War??? I must be extremely foolish but I think this brother Gerald and his mother Annie, other brother Arthur and any other family member who defends this man's action should be watched rather closely or better yet committed to an asylum - just think that there are nine siblings.

I listened to his mother as she said "Well, I just feel like it's an act of God just like a storm or a tornado because he has gone through this for so many years but they just kept giving him tickets for every little thing they could. And with his education and knowledge and knowing the lord, I think this is one of those things." As if that was not ignorant enough, she added "Well, the ones that he shot, I guess, was the ones he felt like done him harm. That's the way I feel." GOD?????? Are you hearing this??!!!!!!! She called it an act of you. Why do you allow these ridiculous clearly insane people to pass it off on you? Do something! PLEASE!!!!!

What do you say to the families, friends and others who are looking at this in disbelief? How do they ever find comfort? How do they begin to trust that you love and care about us? Charles Thornton killed two policemen, Tom Ballman and William Biggs; council members Michael H.T. Lynch and Connie Karr; and Director of Public Works Kenneth Yost.

Mayor Mike Swoboda was hospitalized in critical condition with gunshot wounds. How can this mayor feel safe to continue in office? What is the tone of that city? Am I missing something? I am praying for those families along with the masses of people who too have sent up their prayers - please hear our cry - it's time.

It's really personal.......

I am really upset. Over the years, I have lost so many loved ones that it seems as though you are doing a sweep on my family. The biggest killer is cancer. Cancer took my father, my uncle, my aunt, my sister, and now my father in law is facing his own battle. Why?
These precious spirits all had a great role in life. So many of us depended on them for their words of encouragement, their love, and their presence. We need them to laugh with and share our ups and downs. We have planned a family trip to Barbados in the spring and now we just can’t go without him. We will need to be there for him - how awful will he feel (even though he may encourage us to go) that he is not able to join us? How awful will he feel if he realizes that we are not going - the thought of being the reason that we all decided not to go - can be quite depressing. Why would you want anyone to suffer through that?

I question you all the time, yet I pray to you because I believe that you can change things. I just need to hear from you. I just need to see a miracle - I know you can deliver - it's in the sky - the sun, moon, clouds, rain, air, trees, ocean and the wonderful creatures, the many countries and islands that you have created with different cultures. I could go on and on about your magnificent works. I relish in them and I give thanks for it all - yet I question you - why?

I really need to hear from you - please, dear God, show up!

The Plight of Mankind

My dearest God,

This morning I woke up with so many things racing through my mind. I wonder why am I always thinking of others. I am always feeling the need to help others and I wonder why wont you just show up. There are people who are struggling to make ends meet and even through the struggles they face even more challenges.

As I heard the sirens and saw the cars moving quickly out of their way, my eyes caught a smoke filled sky which indicated a huge loss. For some reason, I began to pray. I prayed for the families and business that will be affected by the loss. Their memories, their place of shelter and rest, their source of income, and on and on I went. I could just cry, I can recall the fire that shook my world.

After leaving a horrible marriage, with my children in tow, I was determined to make life better for us. I left everything behind - no furniture, no televisions, no clothes, etc. I packed just enough to get us through. As soon as we settled in and I purchased new beds, televisions, furniture, clothes, etc., an electric fire came in and claimed it all. I know what it feels like to watch your hard earned money go up in flames. I did not have time to cry, the shock of it all propelled me to jump into survival mode. I had my girls to raise, protect and to support. I did not give it much thought I knew I had to get back on my feet and be strong our lives depended on it. However, I think about the people who have everything invested in their businesses, their homes, they have so many other items that they bought to make their lives more enjoyable. Why???

While others are able to dust off and get back on their feet, there are those folks who just can't take another challenge. Why does it seem that you are trying to break us down? How much stronger can one get after enduring numerous challenges? A fire comes and within in minutes it can destroy lives. People hang out of their windows crying for help, babies are thrown out for others to rescue, some jump out to save themselves, some are overwhelmed with the smoke and die as a result of inhalation and a few escape. How could you let this happen? Oh God who loves and cares for us, how?